There is nothing you should do in your outside. If you had been caught by that idea, you have to ask yourself why you think that way. When you ask yourself, be careful not to blame yourself because blaming can not produce anything.
The most important thing is to be honest with yourself and it can bring your true happiness to you.Love is not in your thought but in your feeling.
What would you consciously choose next for your own happiness if you realize that you have consciously or unconsciously chosen everything by yourself?
You might get hurt your feelings but please don’t escape from it or even if you tried to escape from it, please begin with there once again.
Through those feelings, you can meet your true love, the divine being.
Live together with your soul.